Goodbye Toronto

It’s a good thing it’s raining – it makes it harder to see the tears pouring down my face.  And at the same time, I must look a little crazy walking around in the rain with my dark sunglasses on.  As we drove off, I sobbed harder than I have in years (not since my Mom died) –  it felt like a knife through the heart… definitely a physical pain.

So just what tragedy had befallen me?   Well, it’s not a death or disease… in fact I’m departing on the first leg of a two year round the world odyssey.  No they were not tears of joy – but tears of sadness, as I left my partner for the last time, after 23 years,  and I had to say goodbye to my two dogs, who I have loved like children.   I know that they will all be okay, and I will be fine, as soon as I can get over this initial goodbye sadness.  

After saying goodbye at the door, I caught my breath and got into the taxi… but I choked on the words “Pearson” sob, sob “Airport please”.  I gave one last wave goodbye and we were off.  After a few minutes the driver turned around saying “How are you doing, sir?”  I said, “I will be fine in a few minutes”, explaining that I was leaving everything behind for a two year trip around the world.  He said he understood what I was going through, as he handed me a tissue.  We drove along in silence, with my occasional sniffles the only sound from both of us.  But as we approached the airport, he could tell I had composed myself, so he asked me about my trip and confided that he knew what I was feeling, as he had left his family and friends behind in Afghanistan just 4 years earlier, to seek a better life in Toronto. 

It turned out to be a pretty uneventful flight, but it gave me the chance to sort through my emotions, and get everything back in check so I could greet my family with a smile.   I’m glad I am starting my journey this way…  easing into it by sharing some quality time with family and friends first.  The exploration and adventure will come later,  but this trip is more than about simply travelling… this is a chance to do all the things I have wanted to do for a long time, but just never had the time for.    Isn’t that something we all wish for?

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One Response to “Goodbye Toronto”

  1. Lindsay
    December 3 at 12:10 am #

    I love you, Darren! And I wish only the best for you. I’m sorry it was so hard to leave home and the family. I know it wasn’t easy. The new chapter begins and I wish only the best for you. Lots of love. xoxo

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